Just when I thought things are going well...

I thought something wasn't right when I woke up last Friday morning. I mean, the rain was somewhat a good thing. At least, it gave us all a break from the scorching heat. We prayed for rain, we got rain. Simple as that. I figured it's the weather -- or so I thought.

Anyways, As I was getting all lazy (and sleeping) that day I decided to check my Facebook account. These past few days I've been, what you call "inspired". Many of my friends that are close to me knows when that thing hits me all of a sudden. I've never felt that in a while, to be honest. I was actually beginning to believe this was going to be my year. Going to my browsing my FB page, I noticed that I just lost 3 friends on my list. Surprised, I checked who it was that "unfriended" me.

I was keeping my fingers crossed and hoping a particular person is still in my list -- my worst fear happened -- "she" was no longer on my list. Baffled and confused, I tried to figure out what lead to it. I know I haven't spoken to her personally although I tried getting to know her through chat (the effort, the effort of it) -- I know I never said or done anything that would perhaps upset her -- as far as I know. It's totally unbelievable. Disheartening is the perfect word to describe how I feel.

So I decided to add her again. I even included a message of apology (even though I haven't really done or said anything to her but put the blame on myself) in the request. As I type this, I'm still hoping she accepts my friend request again. To be honest, it's not the first time this happened to me. This is the third one. Till now I'm still trying to recall some past events for me to know why and how it happened.

Truth is, this sucks. A person literally getting upset with me for no apparent reason sure makes me wonder: why? Just what the hell did I do to deserve this? You know what? I DON'T DESERVE ANY OF IT. Seriously. All I can say is, no matter how nice or friendly I am to people, I will always and forever will be misunderstood, judged and doubted for all the wrong reasons. I'm just saying...